Can't help but think...

I know I am supposed to be on a break from of all of this but sometimes I can’t help but think that taking this time off is detrimental. What if these months were the ones that were going to work? What if my eggs are disappearing as I am taking this break. I can’t help but wonder all of these thoughts during this time. And, no you can’t shut them off. I am feeling good otherwise. I have been walking daily and watching what I am eating. I started drinking a smoothie for breakfast each morning and I actually really love it. A) I don’t have to think about what to have and B) It’s easy C) It’s low in calories and its a great way to get all the greens and fruits that I normally can’t eat because of my “crappy and broken” digestive system. LOL I was told a while back to cut out all the leafy greens, certain fruits, etc because that’s what was causing upset and they were right. I haven’t had any issues since. Now I found a way to still get all those vitamins and good for you foods in one glass without upsetting my entire digestive system. I love it! I stopped walking 2 years ago when I had hip surgery. I have been fearful since that time that I would re-injure myself or that their mending wouldn’t hold. Silly, yes, but true. I decided to get over that fear once and for all. I started out walking 1 mile the first week. That would have been a piece of cake before my surgery but it was scary. The 2nd week I started 1 1/2 miles. I am finishing up week 3 now and I am doing 2 miles. I have already lost  weight. My 4th week will be 1hr of walking and then I can move back on to P90X! I can feel my body saying “Ahhhhh, she’s back”!!! I know there are doctors that say being overweight doesn’t affect fertility and others say it does but in some respect, carrying around an extra 40lbs that your body is not used to has to have some kind of effect. This is how I see it. If I walk each day and I get circulation going to all parts of my body, that will allow my organs to work at their fullest capacity and circulation will get to all of my organs which in turn could allow this to have a better chance of happening for us in the end. Hey, even if it doesn’t help, at least I will be back to my healthy self again. So, are there any doctors out there? What are your thoughts on fertility in regards to weight and exercise? I have always heard that walking can help but as you may know, the internet is filled with varying stories and it’s very overwhelming! Regardless if it will help or not, I need to get and stay healthy and this is the perfect time. There are simply no excuses! If I am meant to be a mommy in some form or fashion, I should be my healthiest so that I can be a good influence and so I can keep up with them!

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